The Watched Pot That Never Boiled
This book began in a kitchen. Completely appropriate considering I would ultimately spend over three years in and out of doctors offices, hospitals, and clinics trying out every new pharmaceutical recipe to make a baby of my own. I was the epitome of the watched pot that never boiled.Read Chapter Excerpt
IUI - Insanity Utter Insanity
As I drove to the doctor's office with the "sample" tucked safely in the trusty brown bag next to me, I couldn't help but wonder, will it help my chances if I romance the doctor? Should I be bringing the nurse flowers? What about candles and wine? Will I get a call tomorrow or is this just a new fangled booty call?Read Chapter Excerpt
Alternative Routes
I hated needles and I hated everything about how intrusive the fertility process had been, yet there I was about to add another layer to my treatments. More poking, more prodding and of course, more money. Yet, for some reason I still showed up to my appointment.Read Chapter Excerpt
The Male Perspective - It's 98 Degrees Out Here!
I was the one with the problem and since I felt it was all my fault, I just couldn't comprehend that it affected Peter as much as it did myself. In some weird way I was almost jealous of him. Jealous of the fact that he didn't have to go through the numerous tests and procedures. I was always the one getting poked and prodded, knocked out, cramped up and scarred emotionally and physically. I know if Peter could have traded places with me he would have but the sentiment just wasn't enough. Nothing would compare with what I was going through in my mind and body.Read Chapter Excerpt
All is Fair in Love and Fertility
Just as "All is Fair in Love and War" the same can be said for Fertility. Needles, tubes and any means necessary to ensure you win your battle against the faceless enemy of infertility. Every day, people willingly go in for surgeries and add hormones to an already shaky state of mind.Read Chapter Excerpt
The End of the Road - In Vitro Fertilization
The road from IUI to IVF (In Vitro Fertilization) is like driving along and hitting a dead end. When you're cruising along the hormonal highway it's a relatively easy ride. Although there may be detours along the way, there are many routes that will get you to your destination. Chlomid's not working? I'll take the exit for Follistim injections please. With IVF you are literally and figuratively at the end of the road.Read Chapter Excerpt
NEW! - Jealousy — The Green Eyed Monster
I finally got pregnant due to jealousy. Not IVF, not IUI, not having sex on a full moon with the bed facing east or any of the other supposedly surefire ways to help get you pregnant. Don't get me wrong, I tried all of those methods and more. After four miscarriages, multiple failed attempts at IUI, and enough synthetic hormones to qualify for a change in sexual status on my driver's license, I decided to give IVF a try.Read Chapter Excerpt
NEW! - Miscarriage of Justice
By my third miscarriage I knew what to expect. I awoke late one night with a cramping sensation and I immediately knew what was happening. I watched as my husband slept and couldn’t bring myself to wake him. Waking him would make this real. I fooled myself into thinking if I could just go back to sleep my mind and body would shut down and put an end to what was happening.Read Chapter Excerpt
